Rating: PG-13 for language
Summary: Direct continuation of “You’re Welcome, Goddady Jake.” Leah reveals to Jacob what she said to Bella and Jacob tells her about trying to imprint. Leah’s reaction surprises him. Jake POV.
A/N: To catch up, Bella named her baby Edward Jacob, and this is right after Leah and Jake left the birth scene. I will continue this as well, but I need an overall title for the series. Suggestions, anyone? I also was dying to know what Leah said to Bella, so this is my take on it. Feedback is always appreciated!
Disclaimer: Characters and series belong to Stephenie Meyer. I wish they belonged to me…..
"You're Welcome, Goddaddy Jake" ---oscargirl08.livejournal.com/26320.html
- I'm posting in:bedroom
- I'm feeling:
artistic - I'm jamming to:"Chuck Baby"--- Chuck Brown
Summary: Leah and her “harpiness” helps Jacob in his time of need, but accidently reveals a secret. Jake POV.
A/N: If Nessie was instead born a boy and Bella went through with naming him Edward Jacob (no imprinting!) This takes place right after the *shudders* birth scene and Jacob knows that Bella is in the process of becoming a vampire.
I’m pretty sure I will continue this, but I wanted to post this first part….feedback is greatly appreciated!
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Stephenie Meyer. She talks to them. You know, I feel you Steph, that’s very normal for a writer, but you ignored some of your characters with Breaking Dawn, I’m just sayin’.
- I'm posting in:bedroom
- I'm feeling:
excited
I need to get over Twilight. Really. It's time to move on, Aziza.
Stop reading essays on how the series gives off a sexist message. (Though it's very true.)
Stop joining communities on LJ and searching for icons to express your love of Jacob Black and Jacob/Leah (Blackwater)
Stop re-reading certain sections of the books where Jacob is depicted in a bad light. (Yes, Jacob, you did some asshole things in Eclipse, but I still think you're ten times more interesting and complex than Edward, which made your wussification in Breaking Dawn more noticeable and depressing. I didn't/don't expect you to be perfect. You're a 16-year-old boy, who fucked up and you redeemed yourself by becoming mature. I loved reading about you.)
Woah. I just had a conversation with a fictional character. Scary. Where was I?
Stop imaging yourself playing Leah Clearwater in another movie instillation of the series. You're too short, and umm, African-American? (Hey, I can pass for Native American. Seriously. And if I ever had a chance to be a character in the series, Leah would be THE ONE. Particularly if they rewrite Breaking Dawn how I think it should have went -- Jacob and Leah ending up together, not some dumb Renesmee crap. I would LOVE playing Leah with those circumstances....especially if Taylor Lautner continues playing Jacob. Ummm….)
Stop looking for flair on Facebook. (Yeah Right. Not when I keep finding flair that has my exact opinions: "Edward Cullen? Jacob Black could totally kick that white boy's ass." FTW. How can I stop?)
Stop looking for reviews of Breaking Dawn. You know it sucked. You need people to agree with you? (Yes.)
*SIGH*
I was going to read plays during the break, practice ballet, learn some monologues. Now I'm a reluctant Twilighter. Damn.
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- I'm feeling:
disappointed - I'm jamming to:Where Do Broken Hearts Go?--Whitney Houston
The title says it all. Normally, I can write a substantial review, but I really need a place to rant.
I'm home from college, saw the "Twilight" movie: 9/10 I think, read Eclipse in 2 days, and LOVED IT. And I read Breaking Dawn all day yesterday. I flew through book one, because I really just wanted to get to Jacob's narrative, and then, once that was over, I noticed my pace slowing. I started to get insanely bored and annoyed. I forced myself to finish the book so I could return it to my friend and scowl at her when I did.
- I'm feeling:
angry - I'm jamming to:Flight of the Concords-- Boom
I know this is really,really,really late, but BARACK OBAMA IS MY PRESIDENT!!!!
- I'm posting in:home, finally
- I'm feeling:
cheerful - I'm jamming to:Disturbia-- Rihanna
WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH MY SHOW??
It seems that everything is getting out of control crazy; moving at this crazy fast pace, in a world where people seem to not get what they deserve. It seems that "Heroes" is starting to lose its charm to me. I still forever love it, but really. I kinda don't feel that passionate about making my "Fo Real" series about Sylar anymore.
( What Zee thinks about what's goin' on........ )
- I'm posting in:dorm
- I'm feeling:
confused
Everyday I have either Ballet or Jazz at 8:30 in the morning. Our professor, Erin, is really cool, but I have to wear leotards, tights and ballet shoes/ jazz shoes everyday. That sucks, because I don't think someone with my stature looks attractive in leotards for one, and I only have one. So this friday the dance shoppe is coming to the school and I'm going to pay serious money to get three or four leotards that support me well, as well as some ballet shoes and tights. Yay.
As I suspected, I am one of three black girls in the Acting/Musical Theatre program in my year and I don't feel wanted by everyone else (students). More so, I feel I am being compared to one of the black girls who the white students relate to more. It feels like high school again. Oh well. I'll get used to it.
There are only 7 Acting majors while there are 21 Musical Theatre majors. It's a little odd, but I guess that means we stick together.
My dorm is in what is called "The Woods" AKA "The Hood." At night, some people stay outside and smoke weed and drink, lol.
The food is very expensive. I'm going to try very hard to be healthy, but it costs more to get a salad with my pizza, ya know? But I am planning on exercising regularly, along with my dance everyday. I DO NOT WANT THE FRESHMAN 15!!!!!!!!
There are many saving graces through. My roomate Latashia, is a friend from career center, and we are so alike it's scary. We stick together, and I'm glad I have a friend to transition with. We have stupid inside jokes, and there's this boy I'm interested in, and she says he's gay.....we are just too hilarious. (Right now she's doing her homework and talking to herself, and I don't question it at all.)
And I am enjoying my classes so far. They broke the class of 12 into 2 groups, so I'm with the same people almost all the time, and that may get annoying real fast. I mean, I don't even get to meet other THEATRE people in my grade, much less in the university. Also, in the student directing lab, I have been offered a chance to audition for a role. I'm very excited about that. Hopefully I'll produce habits that will be for my benefit these next four years.
- I'm posting in:MY DORM!!!
- I'm feeling: drained
- I'm jamming to:My roomie singing
Heroes is gonna be on fire in September!
- I'm posting in:home
- I'm feeling: hype!!
That's pretty much why I haven't posted in a while.10 weeks, it's been!
And I had no idea that senior year could cost so much!
I will be attending Wright State in the fall. Carnegie Mellon did reject me, but their letter actually made me feel better about myself. It said something like, "We had so much talent to choose from, and just because a student isn't accepted here, doesn't mean that the student will not succeed in any theatre program they choose."
I was accepted to Columbia College: Chicago, but they didn't give me any money, (they gave me a loan. Whoo.) and it's 35,000 for tuition. So, no. I am happy with my choice. There are so many benefits!
I am officially a scholarship whore. And my Mom is my pimp. Seriously. My church is giving me a scholarship, but I'm the first candidate that is properly going through the process. So they're like, "Oh, by the way, can you come up with a recommendation out your butt by Friday?" Next week: "Can you give us a sealed transcript, too?"
Mom: You have to write a speech.
Me: What? I didn't know about this!
Mom: I told you two weeks ago.
Me: You told me at graduation time! Like I was really paying attention. Was this in the letter?
Mom: No. They told your grandmother to tell you, so she told me--
Me: Are you serious!!!
It's like they know I'm not going to say no, so they're coming up with all this stuff for me to to do in a very unprofessional manner. And they're not adgknowledging that they are being unprofessional. Why do should I call the head of the committee to say what to speak about when she came to my grad party days earlier? And I'm supposed to grin and bear it. I'm a scholarship whore.
My grad party was fun, though. I got lots of cash. Cash is good for future college student. We had some dancing, and a few of my friends came. Black folks have a tendency to absorb air conditioning and radiate heat. We're weird like that. That's what happened at graduation. We were in that hot arena at Ohio State, and they had the air on, but there had been graduation after graduation. So I was singing:
"No Air" (Aziza style)
How do you expect me
to graduate in this heat?
And my hair is sweating out
it's getting so darn nappy!
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air.
Can't walk, can't breathe with no air.
An ambulance is parked out there.
No air, no air.
But it was nice and short. I was one of the first to get my diploma because the choir had to sing, and Mom said that when the names of the first 11 people were called, (the choir) everyone was screaming so loud she couldn't hear what was said about me. There were 12 valedictorians, and I was the only African-American female, in addition to being the second-highest ranking African-American. So I got a pretty medal! YAY pretty medal!!!
For the record, I'm really hype about voting this November! Obama '08!!!!
Okay dokey. There's my catch up. When someone (cuts mean eyes at Mom) decides to get my prom pics on a CD, maybe I can upload a couple. Because prom was an experience that needs a separate entry altogether. :)
- I'm posting in:In a thunderstorm, like an idiot
- I'm feeling:
determined - I'm jamming to:the radio
I just gotta write some Heroes crack! I'm going crazy...but I've got nothing! Can someone help me out?
- I'm feeling: artistic
The movie has a good message and I'm totally relating to the storyline. I knew the main guy was going to be hot, but when he came out of the pool, I was like, "It's the Haitian! Ooooo. It's the Haitian!" I just don't know, I guess it was how the light was hitting him or somethin', cause woah! And I was wondering how I could miss his BEAUTIFULNESS after watching two seasons of Heroes! Am I blind?
And his character was sooooo wonderful. At one point, he leans over in Monique's ear and starts whispering French. And at the end, when he told her he had been waiting for her, and praying for them to meet again, my heart slid out of my chest and onto the floor.
Here's some clips of the movie to the main song. The pool scene is a little after a minute. (Eric Roberts is in it too. Heroes reunion up in here!)
- I'm posting in:family room
- I'm feeling:
giddy
No, 14-year-old boy. I'm not taking you.
No, Mom. I shouldn't have to call someone from elementary school that I haven't seen in 8 years.
No, family. I'm not going to go with someone I've never met before.
Now I ask you, my LJ amigas, am I asking for too much? I believe I know enough guys at school who COULD ASK me, but just haven't. However, prom is May 2, and April is coming up quickly. I guess I'm going to have to take matters into my own hands.
*sighs and picks up phone* God forbid someone would ASK me..........
- I'm posting in:family room
- I'm feeling: annoyed
- I'm jamming to:Sexy Can I--Ray J
My church has been doing a pageant for 23 years. It's kinda like a musical, and it has scenes from Jesus's life and his death and his resurrection. My mom has been the director ever since it began, so I'm a pageant baby!
Anyhow, we do it for four nights, so people rotate parts. And today my friend came. And I told her right off the bat:
"I'm glad you're coming THIS day, because the guy playing Jesus today is SO FINE." But that's not just it. First, let me describe him...
In other news, the University of the Arts has offered me acceptance into the Theatre Management and Production Major, as opposed to Musical theatre. I have to really think about the path I want to take now.
- I'm feeling:
naughty
Wright State has accepted me into their BFA Acting program! Grant it, it's not the Musical Theatre program, but when I auditioned, they asked if I would mind if they put me in that track instead of the MT track. (I have no clue why.) They said I have a nice voice and they would make sure I have voice training as well as dance training. I said that as long as I graduate with the triple threat skills I need, it doesn't matter!
I can't stop looking at the letter. CONGRATULATIONS it said! I was beautiful! After two letters of rejection, it's so beautiful!
AND, the college itself is giving me 4 years of in-state tuition. YAY!!!
AND I'm done with auditions!
Penn State
Carnegie Mellon
Wright State
UArts
U of Michigan
*Does happy dance*
- I'm posting in:home for good!!
- I'm feeling:
accomplished - I'm jamming to:Touch My Body--Mariah Carey
However, tommorrow is OHIO's primary! Yayyyy!!!
And it's OGT (Ohio Graduation) testing week so I don't have to be at school until 11:30. Yayyyyy!!! Sorry 10th graders, but suck it up.
- I'm feeling: bored
- I'm jamming to:Janet Jackson-- Feedback
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tju_tju_tju_tju Also, I don't know how I dug up this old video, but it's Janet Jackson's "I Get Lonely" from 1997's The Velvet Rope. I was watching the video, and man, she could dance! Her moves were on point!! And this song was awesome! I remember it, and I miss old Janet.
So here is the video. Actually, it is the remix with Blackstreet, which is a little faster (which I like better.) However, the original features more of her dancing. I miss those old guy groups that could seriously sing like Blackstreet and Boyz II Men. I think I just miss the heavy base lines and complicated dance numbers of the nintes, I guess.
- I'm posting in:Washington, PA
- I'm feeling:
nostalgic - I'm jamming to:I Get Lonely--Janet Jackson
I can't wait! Ever since Phylicia Rashad and Audra McDonald won Tonys, I've been dying to see their portrayals of these amazing characters!
Raisin in the Sun is one of my favorite plays. My dad made me read it when I was 10, and had me do an analysis of it. He used to listen to it in his car when he drove me to school. My mom used excerpts from the play in her one-woman show of Lorraine Hansberry's work. She also played Mama (Phylicia Rashad's part) on stage. I've seen the musical, Raisin, along with both other versions: Sidney Potier's and Ruby Dee's, and later, Danny Glover's. It is such an amazing story! I'm so hype!
Phylicia Rashad!!! WHOO!
Audra McDonald!!! WHOO!
Sanaa Lathan!!!! WHOO! (I've always wanted to play her part)
P. Diddy...................................
No, no. The critics say he's fine. I should just give him a fair chance...BUT I CAN'T! He playing WALTER LEE YOUNGER!!! I just don't believe it. I don't. I look at Sidney and Danny, and I'm just like, no. Any rich guy who just wants to play a part can't use the complexity that is Walter Lee to get his feet wet. Sorry. No. I didn't believe it in 2004, and I don't believe it now.
From The Columbus Dispatch:
Diddy wants to move to Hollywood and become a full-time movie star (note that it doesn't say actor.) "Yeah, leading-man kind of stuff--you know, jumping off buildings," the hip-hop mogul told David Letterman on Late Show. Besides action-packed adventures, Diddy's ideal roles would include "making love to beautiful women" and doing "very emotional, heart-wrenching scenes."
Sounds like some Paris Hilton "record deal" crap to me. I'm just saying. How do you go from Walter Lee to that?
- I'm feeling: cynical
Gangsta's Paradise by Coolio. (Eminem's Toy Soldiers comes in close second) It was released in 1995 and won a Grammy Award for Best Single of the Year. It was also on the Dangerous Minds movie soundtrack.
Here's the video.
It's the one that Weird Al parodied to make Amish Paradise, which really made Coolio angry. Everyone says that he was overreacting, but I understand now why he got mad. I was listening to it a couple days ago, and it made me so angry and sad. So now I'm going to try to decode why.
I know people with this mentality. I live around them. That's why this song is like such a tragedy to me. Weird Al really should have done his research before stepping all over Coolio's painful story.
- I'm posting in:bedroom
- I'm feeling: thoughtful
tju_tju_tju_tjuI want to know 36 things about you. I don't care if we never talk, or if we already know everything about each other. Short and sweet is fine. Post answers in comments. ^_^
1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
2) What was your dream growing up?
3) What talent do you wish you had?
4) If I bought you a drink, what would it be?
5) Favorite vegetable?
6) What was the last book you read?
7) What zodiac sign are you?
8) Any tattoos and/or piercings? Explain where.
9) Worst habit?
10) If you saw me walking down the street, would you offer me a ride?
- I'm feeling: mischievous
Came home from Pittsburgh in a pretty happy mood, only to be greeted with a letter from Penn State:
We appreciate your interest...but we are unable to to offer you admission into the Musical Theatre Bachelor of Fine Arts Degree program.
Yeah, you ARE able. You just didn't want me.
*sigh* This isn't as bad as Cincinnati though. Last week at Penn State, after we auditioned, we would be told to stay later for an interview if they were interested. I didn't get the interview, and what's funny is that when "Amy" was seeing me out, she told me I did a really good job.
So I saw this letter coming. And at least Penn State's letter is dated 1/25 and I auditioned 1/19. They at least acted (haha) like they thought about me. Cincinnati's was dated 1/15, and I auditioned 1/12.
It's just so messed up. I'm in the top 5% of my class; a straight A student. So in the mail, I got this rejection letter, but I also got 5 pamphlets from other colleges saying how they want me. Cincinnati was already giving me $2,000 a year, and I was supposed to go down this week and compete for a full ride. Now there's no point. My friends know where they're going, and I'm running around trying to get in somewhere. (Sorry, I'm exaggerating. I am in Wright State, but now I have to audition for the BFA.)
Haha....
UC Admissions: What are you doing? We wanted her! She's an in-state minority female who is a National Merit Achievement Scholar! Do you know how much funding we would have gotten!!!
UC's College Conservatory of Music: We're sorry. But she was not skinny enough/not tall enough/too urban/too loud/an alto/too quirky/too strange (who knows?)
UC Admissions: You idiots! Now were going to lose her to Wright State!
Wright State: Hahaha!
But seriously, why do I have to pick the one profession where my brains don't matter---someone can just look at me and decide I don't get the job/admission?
But it's sooooo worth it, which is why I keep going!
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- I'm feeling: pensive
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